There’s only about a month left until I’m done with teaching on the JET Programme. Until I’m out of my apartment; until I can no longer call myself an ALT. This is a pretty scary thought. But it’s an idea I’ve been getting used to over the past few months. When the day came to sign the paper saying I wouldn’t be recontracting, I could barely bring myself to do it. Nevertheless I did, and while I didn’t feel great about it afterwards, I knew I was making a good decision. Something had been telling me to move onwards and upwards (whatever that entails).
There were times in the weeks following that I felt compelled to walk up to my supervisor and exclaim “It was a mistake! Take me back! I want to stay!” But there were also times when I sat at my desk at work with nothing to do, wondering when the day would come when I would feel like I had actually earned my paycheck. And I’ve been comforted by the fact that eventually I would be leaving Japan anyway, if not this year, next year, and I think leaving might only get harder the longer I stay.
Pros and cons aside, there’s a lot of things I’ll miss about Japan. (Besides the friends I've made and the places I've visited.) Superficial or profound, they’ve made living in Gifu one of the best times in my life.
Safety and Cleanliness
These are a given- I don’t need to elaborate. It’s Japan. While occasionally the level of order and sanitation have seemed almost stifling, for the most part I pity myself and other foreigners who have to return to their comparatively anarchic and filthy homelands.
Vending Machines
They’re ubiquitous: on train platforms, in office buildings, on random street corners, in the middle of rice fields. Even at the holiest of places, temples and shrines. The choice of beverages is mindblowing: no two machines have the same selection. In summer, the drinks quench your thirst and deliver welcome coolness to your sweat-drenched body. In winter, cans serve as hand-warmers as well as suppliers of sweet, sweet coffee. But the machines themselves can seem a little sinister, especially at night. Always awake. Always on. Always glowing with that eerie fluorescent light. Despite their convenience, I fear that one day they’ll all come to life, and Japan will no longer be the place to be. hehe
Combinis
This appreciation goes along with my love of vending machines. Some of my fondest memories in Japan have been of late night / early morning drunken combini runs. I’m embarrassed to think of the number of combini attendants we’ve shocked and amused with our intoxicated foreignness. Japanese combinis are unsurpassed in their ability to give you what you need, now. Especially when that happens to be another beer, a box of Pocky and a ginger ‘anti-hangover’ drink.
(I realize that vending machines and combinis are two of the worst offenders as far as non-sustainable living goes. But they’ve been one of my indulgences over my two years here. If I lived here any longer, I’d probably feel the need to kick my addiction.)
Sashimi
Speaking of non-sustainable living, I’ve been feeling slightly guilty about my love of sashimi. Today I found a website listing the world's most endangered fish and many of the sea creatures commonly found in sushi are classified as “eco-worst” fish. Japan is probably one of the countries least concerned about overfishing, which unfortunately makes sense, given that their diet, and to a large extent culture, is based on seafood.
Matsuri
A Japanese festival is a feast for the senses. Even after two years here, when other things have become humdrum and mundane, I'm still in awe of festivals. They’re incredibly diverse and you can enjoy them on so many different levels. If you just wanna get out, get drunk and take surreal photos for Facebook, they’ve got you covered. If you want to witness a rare cultural ritual and learn about another aspect of Buddhist or Shinto beliefs, you can do that. And if you want to get really deep, and ponder what that ice sculpture symbolizes about 21st-century Japanese identity, go ahead. There must be a festival on somewhere every day of the year in Japan, and there are big ones, small ones, famous ones and obscure ones. One frustration though, has been that often they’re held on a certain date, which means that if a cool festival is happening a few hours away on a Wednesday night, you miss out.
The Seasons
Despite what Nihonjin like to believe, Japan isn’t the only country with four distinct seasons. I suppose I could be accused of not what I’m talking about, being from Melbourne where it seems like there’s only two seasons (a hot summer and a mild winter). In my defense, I’ve traveled and lived in other places with four distinct seasons before. But I suspect that the Japanese do seasonal appreciation like no one else. They’ve been observing, appreciating and haiku-ing about the changes in weather and nature for centuries, and their country lends itself well to such veneration. Sites in Japan almost require four visits- one in each season- since the same place can look so dramatically different depending on the time of year. I will miss the little touches in shops and houses here and there that correspond to the season. The hundred yen shop has been one of the most obvious indicators for me of what I should look out for and admire this month: cherry blossoms in April, autumn leaves in October, goldfish and breezes in July.
Onsen
At first, getting naked with strangers was a daunting prospect. But now, I associate onsens with freedom and relaxation- two things that are fairly hard to come by in daily life in Japan. Often, the water has been almost too hot for me to stand- actually scalding. It makes my skin red after only a minute or two, but it helps the muscles relax in a way they never do otherwise. It seems contradictory that a society otherwise so controlled and pressurized could be so committed to public bathing and relaxation in general. But I guess it’s more evidence that Japan is a land of extremes.
Bicycles
Everyone rides a bike in Japan. Kids, teenagers, salarymen, office ladies, farmers, housewives and grandmas- go outside for a few minutes and you’ll probably see an example of at least three of these, perched atop a mamachari. And nobody, except elementary school kids, wears a helmet. Bikes are given respect here: cars know to look out for them and pedestrians move out of their way. Unlike Australia, bikes are allowed on the footpath and there are mass parking areas near train stations. You don’t have to become a hard-core aerodynamic bike warrior decked out in spandex and a helmet to survive the ride to work. One of the best things about J-bikes are the baskets. Yep, at first you feel like a 5-year-old with training wheels, but soon you realize the convenience of it. The only negative aspect of bike riding in Japan that I can think of is that because everyone rides one, even the slowest and least coordinated riders are out and about. This includes ancient ojiichans who ride with their legs spread wide, oblivious to anyone who might want to pass, and then turn to gape at you when you finally do.
No Small Talk
At the risk of sounding antisocial, I’m not a big fan of the small talk that burdens us in Australia. I’m sure it’s pretty much the same in other English-speaking countries, but I have a feeling Australians engage in it more than other Westerners, having more of a group mentality than Americans, for example. Obviously it serves a useful purpose and I can fake it as well as anyone, but it can be such a drainer. In Japan, however, there seems to be a lot less small talk going on, at least of the kind I'm used to. Of course, this could be partly because I don’t speak Japanese well. But small talk isn’t really part of the culture. You learn set phrases and use them. Nobody looks down on you for parroting the same phrase every time you see them – you’re expected to say it. No “Weather’s nice today, isn’t it?” (my Nihongo textbooks made sure to teach “Ii tenki desu ne?” which I have never heard in Japan). You don’t have to think up new and creative ways to greet people throughout the day. Just a simple “Ohayoo gozaimasu” in the morning, and a head nod for subsequent greetings. Sure, it can seem fake and insincere, but so can the elaborate attempts we make in the West. At least the Japanese way is easy, even if you do feel like you’re on autopilot sometimes.
Karaoke
I used to hate singing in front of other people. I’m not a particularly talented singer, but at least I can carry a tune (I think). Before Japan, I had only been to karaoke once in Melbourne, which is thankfully cosmopolitan enough to have a karaoke box frequented by international students. Since coming to Gifu though, it has become almost a staple in my life. The combination of some favorite songs, good friends, ironically 'heartfelt' numbers (like “The Rose” and “Circle of Life”) and alcohol- what’s not to like? Well, actually, the smell of the rooms (B.O. and cigarettes) and the hangover the next day. But overall, a karaoke night in Japan is 6 hours well spent. I still recoil at the thought of public singing, but a Shidax room with a few friends doesn’t intimidate me anymore.
Presentation
Japan is a beautiful place, in many ways. There’s a lot more nature here than the stereotyped images would suggest. Having said that, there’s way too much concrete for my liking in most urban areas, but because almost everywhere you go is clean and neat, Japanese cities are a lot kinder to the eyes than they would be otherwise. As well as the clean factor, most Japanese are incredibly preoccupied with appearances. This includes personal grooming as well as the presentation of food and objects in general. Here there’s no shame in going to any length to ensure you're perfectly presented. Even if this means going through your entire daily beauty routine on the train or stopping to fix your hair in a shop window (girls and guys alike). In stores, the clerk will spend a good 3-5 minutes carefully wrapping up whatever souvenir you’ve bought, with none of the “near enough is good enough” attitude found in other countries. The emphasis seems to be on creating the perfect look no matter what the cost. Witnessing such blatant acts of vanity can be frustrating and has occasionally made me complain that Japan must be the most superficial place on earth(!), but it shows a level of pride and attention to detail that we tend to lack in the West. Being in a place where I see this kind of thing every day has changed my attitude. Yes, it's a tired 'Japan's so Zen!' cliche, but being here, I feel less like just getting things done as quickly as possible and more able to appreciate the small things, take my time and be more patient.